To my dearest bbg, I haven't forgotten the promise which I made to you, I'll edit this post again with every single thing I wish to tell you! :)
Somehow, I have been struggling for quite awhile with things which some people might have been struggling through their entire lives as well; it is being in love with someone you just cant possibly seem to be with. For a moment, I come to realize that love is actually not as difficult as what people results it to be. When you are in the infinite state of infatuation, a feeling no word or emotion could ever come close to describing, you feel as though this life is worth living. And when you lose it, it just appears to be imaginary. An indescribable agony that passes right through my undivided soul. Every muscle in my body tenses and my heart pounds so hard that it has an impact so great that it is literally killing me. The thing i have learned most, is that this pain proves to me that my heart may have felt a happiness I may never feel again. There are few moments in life in which i believe we find true happiness, a moment in which everything stands still and every emotion, thought or worry is gone, like a single soul floating in a world of ecstasy. It's a feeling that I wouldn't wish to trade for anything. I do know, that this pain i have felt, this feeling of hopelessness only shows me, I did once fall in love. And every ounce of faith in me, is devoted to the thought of reliving the happiness. I'll always have this hope that lingers deep in me.